Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Monday, June 10, 2019

It was fun to dog-sit Oscar for a day over the weekend.

Friday, June 07, 2019

Happy Pride!

It's June, and that means there are a ton of LGBTQ events going on this month in celebration. I attended Queens Pride last Sunday in Jackson Heights, and that was lots of fun. I've been going to it on and off for a while now and love its crowd and vibe. Being there just feels like home in so many ways. For this past week's, I watched some of the performances and walked around a bit, and eventually ended up grabbing some food alone at the nearby UFC chicken. Luckily, I was already sitting there with my food and a beer by the time that sudden downpour came towards the early evening. It had been a while since I'd been to that UFC, too, so being there at that moment with dry socks and fried stuff as I parched my thirst with a cold one felt pretty damn good. The restaurant isn't that big, and a family of four ended up sitting next to me after I'd had already gotten my food. It was a mom, dad, young son, and grandma. From the moment that the father and son first came in ahead to get a table, they brought this burst of energy that moved me. I basically began to eavesdrop immediately and didn't stop until I left. The dad seemed really outgoing and had this loud voice that was especially nice to hear because he was so sweet to his son. I'm guessing the kid was around 9 years old, and the dad was totally making jokes with him and the workers. I appreciated that. When the mom and grandma came in afterwards, the four of them together just made total sense to me. They just seemed like a real family, and their love for each other was so apparent. And what had me was the fact that each one of them was engaging in multiple conversations with one another. Stories about other family members that related to something learned were discussed as a group, and then there would be these separate criss-crossing back and forths among the four of them. Their dynamic just pulled me in. They talked about a lot of different things, and the mom even complimented the waiter on his haircut, which he reacted to with gratitude and surprise. The grandma also talked about how she'd made her kids clean the house with her and their father when they were younger. This was so they could use the $100 they saved by doing it themselves to eat together as a family at a restaurant afterwards. There was even a moment when I got to interact with them, which totally made my day. I knew they were super hungry because the topic of their excitement for the food came up after their order was taking a while. When they saw the server bring another dish of mine I had ordered, they ravenously asked about what it was and mentioned how good it looked. When their food eventually did come, it was a few dozen wings in this sauce, a few dozen wings in another sauce, and more fried chicken upon plates and plates of food. It's like, this family really knows how to enjoy themselves and go out to eat, and I loved seeing every minute of it. After I finished my beers and fried chicken, I wished them a great evening as I got up from my table to leave. It was sunny again by the time I stepped out onto the street to head back home on the subway. I don't think I could've asked for a better start to Pride month.
Inhale, exhale x 100.

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

There's free food in Conference Room 2.

Friday, May 17, 2019

"Can I handle the seasons of my life?"

From the song Landslide by Fleetwood Mac.
"You will know."

From the song Dreams by Fleetwood Mac.
"Now here you go again, 
you say,
you want your freedom."

From the song Dreams by Fleetwood Mac.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

"According to the American market research firm Datassential, Korean ingredients like kimchi, which is traditionally buried underground and left to ferment for months, now appear on 5.5 percent of menus in the United States, a jump of 59 percent in the past five years — particularly noteworthy since Americans of Korean descent constitute less than two-thirds of a percent of the total population."

From the May 14, 2019, New York Times article "How Sourness Has Come to Dominate Our Dining Habits, and Our Discourse." By Ligaya Mishan.

Thursday, May 09, 2019

"Making lists of ideas, reading novels, scheduling time to sit down at your computer, researching new coffee shops at which to work, and establishing weekly word goals may seem like parts of writing, but they are not. They are procrastination, which, if you think about it, is actually writing in its purest form."

From the May 8, 2019, Daily Shouts of The New Yorker titled "What Is Writing and Does This Count as It?" By Mia Mercado.

Wednesday, May 08, 2019

"But for the first time, I don’t have a plan, besides to take care of myself."

From the May 3, 2019, Healthyish article "Christina Lecki On Leaving Reynard and What She's Doing Next." By Priya Krishna.

Tuesday, May 07, 2019

"When you look to successful people you admire, study them not only for their victories and achievements, but also for how they overcame failures and changed as a result of them."

From the April 21, 2019, New York Times article "Why ‘Find Your Passion’ Is Such Terrible Advice." By Stephanie Lee.
Write what you want.
Eat what you want.

Sunday, May 05, 2019

"Your love is holding on and it won't let go,
I feel it breaking out like an echo."

From the song Echo by Elevation Worship.
"I've decided I'm not giving up."

From the song Echo by Elevation Worship.

Saturday, May 04, 2019

"We were raised to really respect all religions and all peaceful people."

Said by Patricia Arquette in her April 29, 2019 episode of WHYY-FM's Fresh Air.

Thursday, May 02, 2019

I just discovered the Focus button on the bottom of Microsoft Word docs. And wow, my mind is blown.
"In the coming weeks, thousands of college students will walk across a stage and proudly accept their diplomas. Many of them will be hungry.

A senior at Lehman College in the Bronx dreams of starting her day with breakfast. An undergraduate at New York University said he has been so delirious from hunger, he’s caught himself walking down the street not realizing where he’s going. A health sciences student at Stony Brook University on Long Island describes 'poverty naps,' where she decides to go to sleep rather than deal with her hunger pangs.

These are all examples of food insecurity, the state of having limited or uncertain access to food. Stories about college hunger have been largely anecdotal, cemented by ramen and macaroni and cheese jokes. But recent data indicate the problem is more serious and widespread, affecting almost half of the student population at community and public colleges."

From the May 2, 2019, New York Times story Tuition or Dinner? Nearly Half of College Students Surveyed in a New Report Are Going Hungry. By Kaya Laterman.
I live in a 6th floor walk-up in Harlem, and have come to appreciate the climb required to get to my apartment everyday. Even after more than a year-and-a-half here, I'm still usually a bit out of breath by the time I reach my door. That can also depend on how heavy of a meal I've eaten or how much I've had to drink, but I like the forced exercise. I don't mind it at all, and plus, being on the top floor of my building is a nice perk. But what irks me about 2/3 of my 6th floor neighbors is that they leave their bags of trash in front of their doors from sheer laziness. They can't be bothered to go the ground floor to put it them in the garbage bins until they leave the building at whatever random time they do. I mean, it amazes me how some young people move to New York and think this is acceptable behavior.

Saturday, April 27, 2019

Thursday, April 25, 2019

Monday, April 22, 2019

Cordless? What’s a cord?
"Our culture teaches us to focus on personal uniqueness, but at a deeper level we barely exist as individual organisms. Our brains are built to help us function as members of a tribe. We are part of that tribe even when we are by ourselves, whether listening to music (that other people created), watching a basketball game on television (our own muscles tensing as the players run and jump), or preparing a spreadsheet for a sales meeting (anticipating the boss's reactions). Most of our energy is devoted to connecting with others."

From the book The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van Der Kolk, M.D. Page 80.

Sunday, April 21, 2019

Thursday, April 18, 2019

"I was alone a lot, but I was never lonely. You hear that? It's quiet. You can hear your thoughts. You can hear what it is that's so important."

Said by Robin Roberts in her episode of Oprah's Master Class.

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

"I pull up to Coachella,
in boots with the goose feathers."

From the song Before I Let Go by Beyoncé.
If an elephant never forgets + Maya Angelou's quote about always remembering how people made you feel = Girl, bye
Being an adult is running into someone on the street you haven't seen in a while and saying hi, but not once suggesting to hang out to catch up.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

You sound old and out of touch.

Monday, April 15, 2019

"And no matter what I do,
I feel the pain,
with or without you."

From the song Tearin' Up My Heart by *NSYNC.
Frozen vegetables sold at supermarkets now commonly come in bags that can be directly steamed in the microwave.

This has been an absolute game changer for me. It's technology at its finest, folks, and I'm totally here for it.

Friday, April 12, 2019

The weather outside right now is perfection. It's 63° here in New York, which is warm enough to feel great without it feeling too hot out. I just came from sitting for a bit in the NYC AIDS Memorial Park at St. Vincent's Triangle, and people are definitely out basking in the sun. The park was filled with revelers, from a guy staring directly at the sun as he squinted and ate his bagel with cream cheese cut in half, to an older woman parading around in a mammoth black fur coat with a sable hat to match. It was glorious all around. Happy Friday!
"Many people in the city joke that what makes them real New Yorkers is that they never leave their apartments unless they have to."

From the April 12, 2019, New York Times article Personal Chefs for Everyone: Bespoke House Calls in the Digital Age. By Alix Strauss.

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Do you ever feel like you're just scrolling your life away?

Sunday, April 07, 2019

"11:30pm in New York and people are leaving the party. Honey, they must be depressed."

Said by Grace Jones in her documentary Grace Jones: Bloodlight and Bami.

Saturday, April 06, 2019

Add vice.

Tuesday, April 02, 2019

Monday, April 01, 2019

"How do you control yourself in front of all this stuff?"

Asked by Action Bronson in the show F*ck, that's Delicious. Season 3, Episode 7.
Real moments.

Friday, March 29, 2019

Always have episodes of Ina Garten's Barefoot Contessa downloaded and ready to watch on your phone for emergencies.

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

"We're on a night flight.
Set the controls to star light."

From the song Night Flight by Franc Moody.
Yes, I'll play the game.
The weather here in New York has gotten warmer, and winter now is officially dunzo. I definitely won't miss feeling smothered in the subway by everyone's large coats and puffy jackets, so goodbye freezing temperatures and hello spring.

I recently just got a Spotify account and my world has been turned upside down from it. I also just got my hair permed after more than a decade of always having a short fade, and that's been a much needed change as well. I stopped getting hair cuts back in November and just let it grow for a few months. It felt funny to feel it down to the tops of my ears, but for the first time in my adult life it didn't bother me. It was nice though to get a trim this past weekend when I got my perm. The perming solution smell from the salon is faint but still there.

Monday, March 25, 2019

"I may know the word,
but not say it."

From the song I May Know the Word by Natalie Merchant.
Give me a life without the bells and whistles, for even its proclamation brings a commitment I no longer see having value.

Friday, March 22, 2019

Thursday, March 21, 2019

"I don't think clay has any nationality, right? Because it's a material that has been used for thousands of years by people before there were even nations."

Said by ceramic artist Carlomagno Pedro Martínez in the show Craft in America. Episode Neighbors.
"My work came out of a question of, 'what are you bringing to the table?'"

Said by ceramic artist Gerardo Monterrubio in the show Craft in America. Episode Neighbors.
That's so funny.

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Sunday, March 17, 2019

"You were,
all I could see."

From the song Seven Years by Natalie Merchant.
"How did I love you?
There was no measuring."

From the song Seven Years by Natalie Merchant.
Numbers numb.
I was on the front end of the subway platform early yesterday evening waiting for the train, when two baby rats closely following a parent suddenly appeared on the lower track. They were so cute, and while seeing a rat by itself is no big deal, something about the three of them together made me think aww. It also became the conversation starter from the only other person there who saw it, a friendly grandpa nearby. He eventually ended up saying how much he regretted not taking a photo of it.
I'd like to write a 6,000 word profile on that person, please.
Self-help vs Motivational
Spring in March
AC on the Subway is the first of the season,
like hotels near the seas in,
tropical weather that gives a good reason,
to be somewhere you won't freeze in.
Because on the train there's no ease in,
just make room and squeeze in!
It's gorgeous at 5:30pm on a Sunday.

Thursday, March 14, 2019

Cure. Rage.
"With love, with patience, and with faith,
she'll make her way."

From the song Wonder by Natalie Merchant.

Wednesday, March 13, 2019

"Girl, you are rich,
even with nothing."

From the song It's Only Love That Gets You Through by Sade.
Give me a NO, and I will turn it into something beautiful and electrifying.

Tuesday, February 26, 2019

Sunday, February 24, 2019

I’ve been thinking about what you said...
"I knew that I was on the right path."

Said by Mashama Bailey in the Netflix show Chef's Table. Season 6, Episode 1.
"I found that the heart of many relationships are surrounded by a meal. It really cemented what I think life is and what I want out of life."

Said by Mashama Bailey in the Netflix show Chef's Table. Season 6, Episode 1.

Thursday, February 21, 2019

"I've gotta be me."

Said by Sammy Davis, Jr in an episode of PBS' American Masters titled Sammy David, Jr: I've Gotta Be Me.
"This isn't the time to pipe whipped cream. This is the time to just slather it on."

Sad by Ina Garten in the show Barefoot Contessa: Back to Basics. Season 13, Episode 5.
"Just, like, get all of the caramel from the pan. You don't want to leave any behind."

Said by Ina Garten in her show Barefoot Contessa: Back to Basics. Season 13, Episode 4.

Tuesday, February 19, 2019

"By the time the night is over, whatever was bothering me, I'm feeling great."

Said by Phelicia in the HBO documentary United Skates.
A word.
Uh, weird.

Thursday, February 14, 2019

Put cash in the tip jar when no one is looking.

Tuesday, February 12, 2019

Today, I turn 36.

The way a person celebrates their birthday is always a good indicator of who they are, and where they're at in their life for that year. I feel like for me, my annual observances have just gotten quieter with time. They fade more into the background as the responsibilities of everyday living have piled up. I'm not into calling any big get-togethers because the dedication those require are put aside for those milestones of a new a spouse, child, or mortgage. But I'm totally fine with that. Because I'm more interested in seeing most of my friends throughout the rest of the year, when catching up isn't just about a birthday, but the other important things that happen between each one. You know, because of my lack of spouse, child, mortgage, and all.
"Can I get a falafel with hot sauce, a side of baba ganoush, and a seltzer, please?"

Said by Mary in the movie Party Girl.

Friday, February 08, 2019

Wednesday, February 06, 2019

The journey of a word.
Dear friends,

Please check out a story I wrote for Condé Nast's LGBTQ magazine called them.

My story is titled: This Trans Woman is Changing the Face of Queer Nightlife in Korea

Tuesday, February 05, 2019

"Hae-mi: Then are you a writer?
Jong-Su: Not officially. I'm trying to become one."

From the movie Burning.

Sunday, February 03, 2019

The building's point of view is of you stomping down the sidewalk everyday.

Thursday, January 31, 2019

Sometimes, I wake up in the middle of the night from such vivid and emotional dreams where I don't know what to do with myself. I just lie there in bed, not sure about anything.

Friday, January 25, 2019

"Ain't my fault that I'm out here getting loose.
Gotta blame it on the Goose.
Gotta blame it on my juice, baby."

From the song Juice by Lizzo.

Monday, January 21, 2019

I’d like to smell this tray of truffles from dinner at Atomix all day, everyday. 

Thursday, January 17, 2019

I want to take you with me... let’s go together.
Dear Memes,
you make life seem,
so agleam,
like a dream,
bringing smiles and laughter to the extreme,
because so much of each day is a fight upstream,
where struggles demean,
but your joy tastes as delicious as ice cream.
"My mother is as Korean as Marge Simpson."

From the January 17, 2019, New York Times article: A Secret Ingredient Makes This Chef’s Galbijjim Perfect. Just Don’t Tell Mom. By Sam Sifton.
Whenever I interact with someone else who has adult braces like myself, I'll usually try to make small talk with them. I'll casually just ask a simple question about how they like having them or how much longer until they're done with it.

I went to Herald Square today to run an errand and buy something. And while I was being rung up, I noticed that the nice young lady behind the counter had braces so I sparked a conversation about them. She was super friendly, and I also saw that she was working the register with her left hand while pressing into her right jaw with a few fingers on her other hand. She then began to tell me about how she has to go in for an emergency check-up with her orthodontist because some of her brackets broke and the wiring on her braces were messed up. When I asked about what happened, she told me just had just gotten punched in the face the other day. I stood there a bit stunned and immediately asked, "You got punched?! How? Why?" "I was just walking down the street and this girl punched me. I live in the Bronx," she replied. She didn't seem angry or upset, but was more telling me in a matter-of-fact way. I couldn't believe this random act of violence that happened to her, and felt terrible about it. "I'm in pain though, and that's why I'm pressing into my jaw like this right now," she added. I again expressed my sympathy and she smiled and said she'll totally be fine. Even though this had happened to her, she was still at work with a great attitude, and providing professional customer service. I appreciated it so much that for the first time ever, I went to the website listed on the receipt to take one of those special surveys about my shopping experience.

To the girl that helped me today, I wish you all the best.
The local news on television reporting on the weather is seriously always so dramatic.

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

“If you are reading this, and you’re a writer, and you, like me, are gripped with despair, when you think you might stop: Speak to your dead. Write for your dead. Tell them a story. What are you doing with this life? Let them hold you accountable. Let them make you bolder or more modest or louder or more loving, whatever it is, but ask them in, listen, and then write.”

From the book How to Write an Autobiographical Novel by Alexander Chee. Page 270.

Friday, January 11, 2019

Is this what people do?

Oh, this is what people do.

Thursday, January 10, 2019

"To truly know someone is to be fully aware of their inner lives, the people whose lives made their lives possible, and the context through which they have survived. There's much we don't know about each other."

From the book No Ashes in the Fire by Darnell L. Moore. E-book version page 35.

Monday, January 07, 2019

"If you believe in yourself enough,
and know what you want,
you're gonna make it happen."

From the song Make It Happen by Mariah Carey.
The past few weeks or so.

"Sometimes a whale just wants to change its tune."

From the January 7, 2019, New York Times article: These Whales Are Serenaders of the Seas. It’s Quite a Racket. By Karen Weintraub.

Sunday, January 06, 2019

"엄마, 아빠, 사랑해!"

Said by Sandra Oh in her Golden Globes acceptance speech for the 2019 best Actress in a Drama TV Series award.

Hearing this expressed by a winner at a major American award show is something I've fantasized about my entire life... wow, what a moment.

Congratulations to Sandra Oh on your win. Keep doing your thing and making us proud.
and prancing.
keep on moving.
stop your crying.
while you're cruising.

Music is the answer,
to your problems.
Keep on moving,
then you can solve them."

From the song Music is the Answer by Danny Tenaglia ft Celeda.
Connecting with nature in NYC means going into a pet store and making eye contact with lizards, birds, and guppies.
Time heals all pasta binges.

Saturday, January 05, 2019

Sometimes, a stranger on the bus or subway can seem so normal until you learn that they’re the type of asshole who puts their shopping bags on the seat next to them as they avoid eye contact with the world by staring down into their phone. These people are the worst.
It's so weird how University Place right below 14th Street changed the direction of its traffic all of a sudden. The street used to be a one-way block that went from south to north, but now it goes in the opposite way. I was crossing it just now and got so confused.

Friday, January 04, 2019

The only thing I'm truly nosey about is what restaurant you ate at.
It's time to turn these words of negativity into new expressions of empowerment.

U.G.L.Y. = Unbothered Gay Living! Yass
Example sentence: I was proud to turn into an ugly as I got smarter in life.

D.U.M.B. = Dancing Until Money Bags
Example sentence: I was so dumb last night at the club.

P.O.O.R. = Placing Orders Of Rigatoni
Example sentence: I am always poor.

S.T.U.P.I.D. = Sashaying To Unleash Power, Inspiration, Domination
Example sentence: I love being stupid at work.

Thursday, January 03, 2019

A way.
Too much free time to look back in life hurts my neck.

I'm only staring straight forward from now on.

Wednesday, January 02, 2019

I have these odd days where my shoelaces inexplicably come undone constantly.

Tuesday, January 01, 2019

Happy New Year!

I stayed in last night and drank at home, and was pretty much out cold in bed by 11pm. I think it's the second year in a row where I've done that.

2019 is the year of the pig, which is the animal of my birth year of 1983. Not only does the year of the pig come around once every 12 years, but 2019's is apparently extra special and prosperous because it's the year of the golden pig, which only happens once every 60 years.

I'm looking forward to using the luck from that in addition to some hard work to accomplish some great things.