Sunday, July 27, 2014

"Is this happiness?"

From the song Is The Happiness by Lana Del Rey.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

"No need to ask,
I got you."

From the song I Got You by Leona Lewis. 

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Sometimes, it's okay to just take a deep breath and chill out a little.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

"An ambitious ethnic-studies major could stand outside the gay bar Metropolitan on a Saturday night and gather enough material for a thesis project."

From the July 15, 2014 essay titled "Let's Talk About Gays 'Stealing Black Female Culture'" by Daniel D'addario.

Monday, July 14, 2014

"These are the contents of my head."

From the song Why by Annie Lennox.
Sometimes, when it comes to having a nightcap, the real question is: why the hell not?

"Go get two cheesecakes and wait up for me. I have a feeling the four of us will be talking until dawn!"

Said by the character Sophia in the sitcom, The Golden Girls. Season 4, Episode 7.
Learning to not take things personally was a life lesson that took way too long to learn.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

The weekend so far has been really nice.

My roommate went out of town for the weekend, and my bro-in-law also had a business trip, so my sister has been staying at my place with their dog since Friday evening. It feels like our childhood in Flushing again whenever we're alone together on weekends. This is something that we sort of grew up doing---and staying in for days and just ordering food while vegging in front of the television is our version of a real good time. At night booze is definitely had, so whatever we're eating ends up tasting even better!

It's kind of funny when I think about all the weekends we've spent together as shut-ins, hiding away from the world in the comfort of stretchy pants. Now that we've both become adults with our own lives, it's not like we're able to plan ahead for weekends like these. In some weird way, they just end up happening every once in a while, and I've come to really appreciate that. All of this has helped me realize how much I treasure time off where I'm able to spend it with the people I love, and that I need gatherings like these on a regular basis to feel normal and connected.

My brother-in-law just returned from his trip and has come over my place now, and the 3 of us plan to watch the World Cup finale at my place together. The Argentina vs. Germany game will be starting in about 15 minutes, and we're all excited. Unfortunately though, I have to be at work later today by 6:30pm so it'll be hard for me to get truly into it, but it should be a fun time nonetheless.

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

"Cameras are on chefs' minds far more than they were a decade or so ago, when most pictures of food were taken in studios under blazing lamps. Digital cameras that capture high-resolution images in low light opened the game to anyone sitting in a restaurant, from a blogger with a tripod-mounted DSLR camera to an Instagrammer holding an iPhone at arm's length. As soon as those devices began plugging into the Internet and social media accounts, food photography stopped being just an illustration for a cookbook or magazine. Now the picture itself is the story."

From the July 8, 2014 New York Times article, Your Eyes Are Happier Than Your Stomach: Dishes Worthy of Instagram, but Not Your Appetite, written by Pete Wells.

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

It's pretty late at night right now, but I still just can't seem to fall asleep.

I keep obsessing about this one thing in my head and I'm trying to think of other stuff to keep my thoughts occupied, but it's no use.

Friday, July 04, 2014

Happy Independence Day, America!

U-S-A! U-S-A!

Thursday, July 03, 2014

It was so great to get out of the city this past Saturday, even if it was just for one night.

Hyunha and I drove up to Beacon early on Saturday morning. Quality conversation along with the beautiful weather and scenery really made for a nice drive to the Hudson Valley. We started our day with a visit to Dia:Beacon, and then checked into a nearby motel to just chill and hang out until returning to NYC the next morning. 

I always know I'm having a good time while traveling when it feels like I've been away longer than I really have, and I can say that that was definitely the case for this trip. 

Thank you, Hyunha!

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

Having to take the subway home after finishing a shift at the restaurant can be a trip sometimes.

I forgot how it is to ride it so late at night while the majority of New York is getting some shuteye. On some nights, I'll get lucky and not have to wait long for either of the two trains I need to take. Then there are other nights where in general the wait is really long since it's usually past 1am, but then I'll keep missing the train with just plain and simple bad timing. It's always sort of funny though on the rare occasion I'll see customers I had just waited on also waiting at the same subway platform. For my commute home, the other people on the train are normally fairly young and sometimes a little drunk, or also restaurant industry employees who just got off work like me. One thing that I've really become aware of after taking the subway home late at night lately is NYC's homeless situation. The visibly large amount of people sleeping on the subway carts, waiting benches, or even station stairwells become really noticeable, and it's pretty sad.

Then there can be other days where a really great thing could happen late at night on the subway. Last week, I was sitting on a practically empty subway back home past 1:30 in the morning. The train pulled into a stop and as it sat there with its doors open for a few minutes, a train heading into the opposite direction pulled up on the other side of the platform. And that's when I saw an old coworker from an East Village restaurant years ago standing on the train with his bike. I noticed him immediately and got up a little from my seat to see if he would notice me staring at him. The good news is that as the doors on his train closed up, we did make eye contact and waved hi to each other with a laugh because we never run into each other ever---let alone late at night on the subway like that.

Now I'm at home, trying to unwind after a very long day. I just wish it wasn't 3am.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

"Because if you made a book of what really happened, it'd be a really upsetting book."

Said by the character Angela in the show My So Called Life. Pilot Episode.

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

"Leave it to Flushing to turn a beautiful image into a bowel dysfunction." 

Said by the character Fran in the sitcom, The Nanny. Sean 2 Episode 4 titled "Material Fran."

The Nanny isn't a sitcom I've ever really watched or knew much about, except for the fact that the main character, Fran, is from Flushing, Queens. But oh man, this rerun that's on tv right now is really funny so far.
With age, I've come to realize that fresh fruit tastes better than any manufactured sweets or candy.
"Everything looks perfect from far away."

From the song Such Great Heights by The Postal Service. 

Monday, June 23, 2014

Within the past month or so, somehow, it feels like my life has suddenly become quite busy.

It seems like lately, every single day of the week is earmarked for some sort of activity. Whether it's waiting tables at my second job right after finishing my office job, dinner dates with friends, social obligations, attempting to sweat it out at yoga, having people visiting from out of town, running an errand that should've been done a while ago or just trying to keep my overall shit together, all of the days and weeks look as though they're melding into one long blur. This constant cycle of busyness does make time go faster, but simultaneously had me wondering if I'm actually getting stuff accomplished instead of just going through the motions in life.

It does seem that my thoughts on all of that are connected to a truth that I've only recently learned to truly accept and understand, and that's that HAPPINESS IS IN THE RIGHT NOW. There's no future achievement or completed goal that will bring me any more than I can help myself recognize that I have today, and that I can make this very day as happy and fulfilling as any other fantasy moment where things in life might seem "better" or "easier."

Wow, it took me 31 years to see all of this in a different light... and from this day forward, I'm really going to try my best to never regress back to that mindset.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Junho and I had our housewarming party this past Friday night. 

Thank you to all those who were able to make it! I wish I had taken more pictures of and with everyone who came, but unfortunately I was too busy tending to stuff throughout the evening---and these are all that I have to remember the night by.