Sunday, July 22, 2018

"I'm more interested in ideas than in recipes, if that makes sense."

From the Editor's Letter in the September 2018 issue of Bon Appétit magazine. Written by Adam Rapoport.

Monday, July 16, 2018

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

I've only recently started watching make-up tutorials on YouTube for fun. And all I have to say is, learning about what highlighters are and what they do has completely blown my mind.

Monday, July 09, 2018

Friday, July 06, 2018

There's nothing like sitting alone at a desk with your computer in a quiet room. It feels instantly different from the times of having it on my lap watching tv on the couch, or even when I'm being super lazy with it lounging in bed. There's no distractions. It's just the laptop at easy-to-see eye level forcing you to sit up and pay attention. Anytime the tv is on, it's bad for me because it becomes my main visual focus. It'll make me glance at my computer screen for a second before darting my eyes back up and away. I don't care how much more great technology gets invented, but my attention span can not be dissected between fighting elements. Especially when these actions differ so much from each other, and create an unnatural pair joined together only from convenience. One of them that I have to deal with the most is people walking down the sidewalk with their eyes glued to their phones. And I am not talking about functional usage, where you see someone writing something or doing something. This version is only slightly better because at least the person puts their phone away at some point or there's an end to their usage. But I'm talking about people who are scrolling nonstop or even watching a movie, or whatever videoclip, as the world continues to run around them. These are the people who slow everyone else down on the sidewalk without a care in the world. They're completely tuned in to a parallel dimension that leaves them incapable of accomplishing the simple feat of walking down the street. As one of the first few waves of collateral damage due to technology, perhaps sticking to walking and chewing gum remains a better fit for them.

It was the 4th of July a few days ago, so we're well into the summer right now. It's been good so far. I like feeling the warm weather and working up a small sweat from just being on the subway platform. The one thing I haven't done yet is go to the beach. It's been a few years since I've been, and I've never been an avid beachgoer here in New York in general. But I definitely want to go to one a few times this summer, so I'm looking forward to just laying out under a big umbrella and chilling for a bit at some point. Plans of going to the beach are really my only getaway plans for the season. I have no real plans to do anything else major, which is totally okay by me. Because there's something about the older I get, the more I know myself, and I like the options that come along with having no set plans.

Wednesday, July 04, 2018

What are the fireworks of the future? Because I think we're ready for it.
Pour you?
Poor, you.
To leave the house, or not leave the house?

Tuesday, July 03, 2018

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You are what you scroll.
I love Aquaria.
Happy Friday! Okay, well at least the holiday week version.

With it being the 4th of July tomorrow, the city seems quiet today for a Tuesday. But I love it when national holidays fall on a Wednesday because it breaks up the workweek into two manageable parts.

Happy Independence Day and birthday, America! Have fun celebrating.

Monday, July 02, 2018

"There's nothing stronger than a broken woman who has rebuilt herself."

Said by comedian Hannah Gadsby in her Netflix stand-up special.

This comedy special is so good. It's not just about jokes, but as Hannah said, about sharing stories. Because the one imagined in our heads is purely fiction, and a version that we could never even imagine awaits.
"Where are the quiet gays supposed to go?"

Said by comedian Hannah Gadsby in her Netflix stand-up special.

Sunday, July 01, 2018

The separation of families is wrong. There's a difference between a process, and unnecessarily cruel behavior that parts people from the ones they love most in the world. And this is especially during such a vulnerable time for these families. And the fact that this is happening to children? I don't see how any of that is okay for anyone, anywhere.

Saturday, June 30, 2018

"I always feel like I'm starting over." 

Said by the character Jackie Brown in the movie Jackie Brown.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

It's a fact that food tastes better after 10pm. It's like, because of astrology or something.

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

I am home after drinking on a Tuesday night, microwaving my Father's Day leftovers from Sunday.

My mom and dad dropped off an entire extra tray of homemade galbi jjjim this weekend, which tastes so good after nuking it in the microwave just now.

It's basically everything, and the amount of joy it brings me right now is just beyond words.
Best of Both Worlds vs. Best of Each World

Sunday, June 17, 2018

"I'm stuck on your heart,
I hang on every word you say."

From the song The Best by Tina Turner.
Thank you, Beyoncé.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

"The future's us, 
yet every citizen's in prison."

From the song Everything by Nas.
"I'm gonna have to leave you."

From the song White Label by Nas.
New nose?

Friday, June 15, 2018

"Natasha: I was thinking today, this will be on the Internet forever.
Doug: Petty much, yeah. Is that bad?"

From the show Getting Doug with High. Episode Natasha Leggero.

Thursday, June 14, 2018

I've been working from home for the past few days, and until today, I hadn't left my apartment since Saturday night.

The weather in NYC is so gloriously welcoming today, and it feels great to get some fresh air.
"Where did I go?
When did I realize,
My love was on hold?
So now this is goodbye."

From the song Where Did I Go by Jorja Smith.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

The past few weeks or so (shot on an iPhone X).

"The omakase’s undeniable excellence reminds me of the following point: Just as the modern Korean restaurant has become a quintessential part of the Big Apple dining experience, a Korean barbecue dinner has become as inextricable a part of the New York steakhouse experience as a steak for two at Peter Luger."

From the June 12, 2018, Eater NY article: Cote’s New Steak Omakase Is an Electrifying Masterpiece. Written by Ryan Sutton.
Duly noted.

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

The thing about the average NYC apartment is they're not that big. They come in all shapes and layouts, but the term "spacious" is not something that pops into mind often. That's also the case for my current apartment. It's totally fine and I like it here, but my fire alarms always goes off if I cook something oily in a pan for too long. It's because one fire alarm is at the end of the hallway towards the back bedroom, which isn't too far from the kitchen. There's no good ventilation around there, so the smell gets trapped. And it'll make the fire alarm go off, which instantly activates the one in my room that's on the other side of a nearby wall. The sound is so piercing and totally puts me in panic mode. It usually takes a few back-and-forths of me sprinting between the two while I jab at each with the end of my Swiffer Sweeper stick before there's silence again. Thinking about having to deal with this has actually stopped me from making certain kinds of food sometimes. I know this could be a good way to kickstart a policy of cooking healthier stuff, but dammit I'm just not ready for that yet.
Hearing the word relax is the about the most un-relaxing thing to hear.

Monday, June 11, 2018

"Let's just bake a cake for everyone who wants a cake to be baked!"

Said by Andrew Garfield at the 2018 Tony Awards during his acceptance speech for Best Lead Actor in Angels in America.
So many people who've reached a certain level of success and prominence have repeatedly expressed the same learning lesson: Nothing is ever as perfect as it seems, and no amount of money or fame is going to magically fix everything.

Yes, but why is it so hard to digest this information? To actually take it to heart. To stop romanticizing things that are simply figments of fiction created from our own imagination. To know there's a truth to every situation beyond what is seen by the eye is the first thing to disappear in the mind. But that old adage saying the best things in life are free is so true. And maybe that's what scares people the most into thinking otherwise.

I've been reading up on all of the amazing essays, think pieces, and social media posts dedicated to Anthony Bourdain this past weekend. I've never had the pleasure of working with him or ever being in the same room as him through some industry function. I've known nothing beyond my experiences of watching his tv shows or interviews, so learning more about him through all of the deeply personal messages dedicated to him has been really moving. It just makes me so sad to think that he saw suicide as the only way out, and seeking a solution through any other resource was futile. I think just like how our physical bodies break down and get hurt, the same thing happens to the brain. And mental health is a real issue that needs to be taken seriously. 

I used to write a lot more on this blog about being depressed and feeling down, but it's something that's gotten better for me with time. However, for the periods when I do still feel it, I don't want to bring it anymore thought or attention to it, so I push it away and definitely don't write about it. But I can't lie and say it never happens, because it still does on a regular basis. I try to deal with it all in more positive ways now, and small things like taking deep breaths and pausing the racing hamster wheel of thoughts in my head has been helpful. But what I've realized most in all these years is that it's during the cloud of depression when the instinct to hide away from the world is strongest, when in actuality, that's the time when friends and support are needed the most.

Sunday, June 10, 2018

"I decided instead of running away from the idea of a life alone, I'd better sit down and take that fear to lunch... So, I sat there. And had a glass of wine alone. No books, no man, no friends, no armor, no faking."

Said by Carrie Bradshaw in the HBO show Sex and the City. Season 2, Episode 4: They Shoot Single People, Don't They?
Were we?
It's. Not. That. Serious.
"Are we leaving,
this garden of Eden?"

From the song Garden by Dua Lipa.

Good morning, everyone. Sometimes I wake up with a melody already stuck in my head.

Saturday, June 09, 2018

There are a few facets of my life I've been actively pursing for the past few years. Whether as baby steps or a larger risk, I've been trying to work at it to keep things moving along somehow. But what I'm doing just doesn't seem to be working. And I'm at a loss for what to try next. Like, what am I doing wrong and how do I get the results I want?

Friday, June 08, 2018

Be right back.
Wow, waking up to the news about Anthony Bourdain's suicide today is so shocking. Kate Spade and him in the span of one week, it's all so heartbreaking.

Thursday, June 07, 2018

"I can't understand."

From the song I Can't Understand by Queen Latifah.
There's a bottle of wine that's been in my fridge for over an entire week...

Wow, is this 35?

Wednesday, June 06, 2018

Some people have no idea that I think about them everyday. Every. Damn. Day.

Sunday, June 03, 2018

Eating salad with a fork = Salad
Eating salad with chopsticks = Banchan

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Monday, May 28, 2018

"Or do you not think so far ahead? 'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever."

From the song Thinkin About You.

Sunday, May 27, 2018

Friday, May 25, 2018

Life is just death's procrastination.

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

"I don't wanna waste no time all alone.
Want somewhere to go, something to call my own.
And I ain't satisfied. 
Where to go?"

From the song New Love by Dua Lipa.

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

"The most important things in life aren't things. They're the feelings you get when you can afford to buy things."

From Encouragement for Struggling Creatives in the May 28, 2018 issue of The New Yorker. Written by Riane Konc.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

Friday, May 18, 2018

Ohhh. That person that did that thing. Yes.

Thursday, May 17, 2018

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

In the same way creativity works, not releasing the love from within, and any suppression of it, materializes in toxic ways.

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

"Mamaw felt disloyalty acutely. She loathed anything that smacked of a lack of complete devotion to family. In her own home, she'd say things like 'I'm sorry I'm so damned mean,' and 'You know I love you, but I'm just a crazy bitch.' But if she knew of anyone criticizing so much as her socks to an outsider, she'd fly off the handle. 'I don't know those people. You never talk about family to some stranger. Never.''

From the book Hillbilly Elegy by J.D. Vance. Page 41.

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there.

I love my mom so much.

Friday, May 11, 2018

It's robots, not immigrants, who are taking your jobs.
"Big things have small beginnings, sir."

Said by Mr. Dryden in the movie Lawrence of Arabia.

Thursday, May 10, 2018

"Wake up, 게임은 내가 이긴걸."

From the song Pretty Boy by 2NE1.
"My heart changed my mind,
I gol' dar gone and done it."

From the song Love Gets Me Every Time by Shania Twain.

Saturday, May 05, 2018

"I want you to remember me."

From the song Snapshot by RuPaul featuring Macutchi.

Friday, May 04, 2018

  • It really pisses me off when I go to a restaurant and see a dumbass customer get in the face of the host/hostess because they're mad about not being seated right away since their group is incomplete. It's like, that's not how restaurants in NYC work, you idiot! Just stay home and be rude to your stove instead, jackass.
  • When it's muggy, hot, and you don't have your air conditioner installed yet in your apartment, it's when you're sitting in the air-conditioned subway ride home that one realizes what a luxury the cool air on your skin at that moment truly is.
  • Reading has been replaced by scrolling.
  • I spent all of my childhood avoiding the bathroom at exactly 12am because I was terrified of Bloody Mary appearing in the mirror to kill me. During high school when I slept late, I was sure to always shower or enter the bathroom at 12:05am or after just to be on the safe side.  And now at 35, the memory of living most of my young life like this came flooding back. And I can't remember at what age I stopped fearing the bathroom at the stroke of midnight. All of it just makes me want to have a bloody mary at a bar in celebration.
  • The theme song to the podcast "Late Night Whenever with Michelle Buteau" is catchy and has been stuck in my head for hours. And the podcast is super funny, too.
  • Button-down shirts buttoned all the way to the collar + tucked into pants = the uniform for the truly uptight.