Wednesday, February 22, 2017

"I've always said, you know, when your acrylics are on point, your life is on point."

Said by RuPaul in the podcast RuPaul What's The Tee? w/ Michelle Visage. Episode 86.

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Titter.
Shania Twain saying "whatever" at the end of That Don't Impress Me Much is just perfection.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

"So you got the looks,
but have you got the touch?"

From the song That Don't Impress Me Much by Shania Twain.
"The best thing about being a woman, 
is the prerogative to have a little fun."

From the song That Don't Impress Me Much by Shania Twain.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

People who litter bring civilization back hundreds of years.
There was a long period in my life that was filled with the mourning of a relationship I had known since I was born. This happened around early college, and I was distraught and upset about it for years. As a young man, it hardened my heart. I used to obsess over all the details and whys and hows, and was pissed this person had made a decision that had such an effect on me. But now when I think about it, I realize they did me a favor. I totally see that they live a life filled with such chaos and toxicity, so our estrangement was in actuality a good respite from their constant orbit of dysfunction, which I realized only this morning is how they've been since I can remember. I guess the true turmoil I experienced from that time was more from the darkness that overtook me, but now that I'm an adult, I'm okay with that. Because since it's something that I manifested to my own self, I'm working on undoing it on my on as well. This is just another lesson about how traumatizing yet inspiring the clarity of hindsight can be. And also how one of the first biggest obstacles of my adult life was one the greatest blessings I've ever received. 

When life gives you disorder, learn to recognize it and not allow it in.
"Creativity and ego cannot go together.

If you free yourself from the comparing and jealous mind, your creativity opens up endlessly.

Just as water springs from a fountain, creativity springs from every moment.

You must not be owned by our own obstacle.

You must own the environment, the phenomenal world you live in.

You must be able to freely move in and out of your mind.

This is being free."

Said by Jeong Kwan in the Netflix series Chef's Table. Season 3, Episode 1.
Insist.

Friday, February 17, 2017

"We here, Chiron."

Said by Kevin in the movie Moonlight.
"But isn't this what has always made America great? That we are a country of immigrants, constantly inventing and reinventing? Take that photo up there of my dad, Dan Rapoport, and his father, David Rapoport. My grandfather emigrated from what is now Belarus in 1923, and he and my grandmother raised my dad and uncle in Flushing, Queens.

Today, the once-Jewish neighborhood of single-family homes is solidly Asian and a one-stop destination for a world of cuisines. A plaque with Korean characters is affixed to the doorway of my father's old house. And on a recent visit, thanks to some snooping around on my part (hey, no one was home!), what did I notice around on the back patio? Six beautiful ceramic kimchi pots, carefully set upon wooden pallets. That made me smile. And I would like to think that my food-savvy father, who passed away in 2012, is also smiling. Because if you're going to love kimchi, and all the other amazing food this country has to offer, you've got to love the people who make it, too."

From the March 2017 issue of Bon Appétit's Editor's Letter. Written by Adam Rapoport.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Dear pasta,

Thank you for yet another year of being my Valentine's. You will always be my #1 everything.

Love,
Tae

Sunday, February 12, 2017

I turned 34 today.

Another year, another meal.
Please don't feel the need to show me anything on your phone.

Just send me a link and I'll look at it when I feel like it.

Saturday, February 11, 2017

"You have to learn to accept who you are, and who you aren't."

Said by Delilah in the podcast Conversations with Delilah. Episode The Foundation Of Love.
"Key change, baby."

Sang by Maya Rudolph in Michael Bolton's Big, Sexy Valentine's Day Special.

Friday, February 10, 2017

"Let's run away,
and don't ever look back."

From the song Teenage Dream by Katy Perry.
Oh, this? It's my bag full of receipts.
"This is the part of me, 
that you're never gonna ever take away from me."

From the song Part of Me by Katy Perry.
Excitement will keep me going through the hard times.

Thursday, February 09, 2017

It's a snow day here in New York. The sky is white and completely washed out. I'm grateful to be at home though, experiencing it from bed.

My room is super bright right now because it still doesn't have any blinds or curtains. I've pretty much been stuck here since waking up but now I'm getting hungry. And since I have no food, I'm trying to figure out how to change that.

I had a really good meal last night though. Actually, two of them. I went to Lalo for dinner with my friend Marisa, and then we eventually ended up eating at 69 Bayard as our last stop of the evening. I guess even though a night out is bookended with great food, you still always gotta eat again the next day.

Tuesday, February 07, 2017

I just want to look at pictures of pasta all day.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

It's easier to just add a word in a Microsoft Word document if it's something you plan to use for a very long time.

It's like, hello word. Welcome.

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

In elementary school, I used to think that Elle magazine was named after the model Elle Macpherson.

I thought being a successful model meant magazines named themselves after you. Clearly, I was just a misguided young gay.

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Sometimes, the year can start with so many different things all at once. The good, the bad, the tragic, or even life-changing.

Things are happening, and I'm ready to make moves.

Monday, January 16, 2017

Thursday, January 12, 2017

I went to Philadelphia on Monday to interview a restaurateur for this private freelance writing gig. My trip was literally just for a few hours. I took a half-day at work to take the Amtrak there in the afternoon, and then took a returning train back at 9pm. The train ride to Philly was so painless and easy. And in the short while I was there, the city itself seemed really nice. It definitely makes me want to take a day trip sometime to go check out more sites and try some of the city's good food.

I guess the exciting thing about it all is that I got to get out of New York for a few hours because of writing. Baby steps...
I've always hoped my life would get bigger with age. More love. More people. More success. More money. But the only thing that feels like is getting bigger is my waistline.
Isn't dabbing just sneezing into your shoulder?

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

"And once you grow up, the things that you're ashamed of are going to be the truth that other people love you for."

Said by Kimchi in reality show Rupaul's Drag Race. Season 8, Episode 9.

Sunday, January 08, 2017

"You know she was a queen,
she lived in Queens."

From the song She Don't Really Care_1 Luv by Alicia Keys.

Saturday, January 07, 2017

Vulnerability.
Dear friends,

Please check out my first story of 2017 for VICE's MUNCHIES: Inside the Final Hours of One of New York's Best Restaurants.

Thank you.

"When I'm walking by I want to roll my eyes,
in my pink sunglasses."

From the song Pink Sunglasses by Miranda Lambert.
It's a snowy Saturday afternoon here in New York.

I got to my friend Junho's place in the Upper West Side a few hours ago to dog-sit for the next couple of days. The view outside his window right now is a complete wash of snow and wind with a tinge of pink in the sky. It's nice to be indoors after being outside in the weather earlier though. I forgot how much of a thigh workout it is to try walking on snowy sidewalks during a storm without falling on your ass.

Monday, January 02, 2017

Happy 2017 everybody.

It's a new year! And what does that mean? Not much.

I think at this point in my life, I'm learning to not get so caught up on things like that. I don't want to focus on stuff I desperately want to change about myself. I prefer to concentrate on what I plan to get done instead. And for that, it takes steps. Baby steps. Big steps. Risky steps. Any steps, actually. But as long as I'm moving in the right direction, it's alright with me.

One thing though that I am feeling is excited. I don't know about what, but I'm good with that for now. Or maybe it's because I just spent the last hour scrolling through memes that had me laughing pretty hard? I wouldn't be surprised if that has something to do with it.

Friday, December 30, 2016

I re-watched Singin' In The Rain earlier before falling into a deep hole of Debbie Reynolds videos on YouTube for another three hours.

And now, I've finally reached a point where I'm ready to let go. Goodbye Debbie. Rest in peace to you and your daughter.

Sunday, December 18, 2016

"It was in New Orleans. I took one look at this thing on stage and said 'This is going to be one of the world's greatest alcoholic-tweakers ever.'"

Said by Lady Bunny at 2016 Toronto Pride. 

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Run on questions.
"She was the person who admitted that said she was a foodaholic. And that night she had taken some frozen hot dogs buns and poured some maple syrup over them and ate them."

Said by Debbie DeMaio in the podcast Making Oprah. Season 1, Episode 1.

Monday, December 12, 2016

Wednesday, December 07, 2016

"You better work."

From the song Supermodel by RuPaul.
"Head to toe, soul player."

From the song 24k Magic by Bruno Mars.
"I think art is a lot more interesting than drugs are and takes you to much deeper levels of interpretation about life."

Said by Carol Dunham in the podcast, Women of the Hour with Lena Dunham. Season 2, Bonus Episode.

Sunday, December 04, 2016

There's an onion in every opinion.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

"'Cause tramps like us,
baby we were born to run."

From the song Born To Run by Bruce Springsteen.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Monday, November 21, 2016

Saturday, November 19, 2016

The problem is never the end of the story.
"There's a hole in my heart,
I've been hiding."

From the song Hallelujah by Alicia Keys.

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

"That's why the Lord continues to bless you. Because you have an attitude of gratitude."

Said by Vivica A. Fox on the podcast, RuPaul: What's the Tee?. Episode 54.

Saturday, November 12, 2016

"'Cause life is too short,
to fall in New York."

From the song Pawn It All by Alicia Keys.

Wednesday, November 09, 2016

THOTS NEED SHOTS.
Reading the news this morning made me want to eat pasta until I black out. It's still taking time to sink in.

Sunday, November 06, 2016

I watched Moonlight yesterday afternoon, and really liked it.

The story and acting were so moving, and the entirety of the film was completely transporting. Its visual experience was also intense, which on top was heightened by an awesome soundtrack. What the main character goes through felt tough to watch at times because no one should ever endure what he did. And that feeling of helplessness and anger seemed so relatable. To watch him be punished for simply being, the injustice was too much. As a gay man, there were definitely emotions from the main character that felt familiar. Throughout the entire movie, it was just like wow, how do you even create something this amazing? I loved how it engrossed me and made me forgot about everything else in life, except for the rumbling of the nearby subway of course. I watched the movie at Angelika and hadn't been to the theaters in years. The last time I did was actually also at Angelika to watch The Lunchbox, so feeling the train was a funny throwback.

I was thinking again just now about the ending of the movie. It made me realize that my conclusion about it could've been wrong. And that the story of the characters could've lived on in a different way, which made me happy. The film has been in my head since watching. There were so many layers to the story that are still being peeled back.
Release.
Everyone's out there getting married and starting families, and I'm just here getting adult braces

Thursday, October 27, 2016

I long,
to belong.
To lend my voice to a song,
sung by a chorus so strong.
Lifted by a bond,
unbreakable to beyond.

Monday, October 24, 2016

Getting new magazines in the mail is the only thing I have to look forward to when coming home.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

"'The hardware is here,' Rob Buchanan said, wheeling in the trophies on Thursday night for an unusual award ceremony.

He was pulling a little wagon bearing a toilet seat painted gold and a toilet plunger painted silver.

'Let's get this over with, so we can go back to drinking beer,' he said, officially kicking off the 2016 Golden Toilet Awards.

Mr. Buchanan coordinates a volunteer water-testing program for the New York City Water Trail Association, an advocacy group, and holds awards each fall to honor, or really dishonor, the most polluted waterys in and around New York City. He also hand-paints the two trophies himself."

From the October 14, 2016, New York Times story: For New York's Foulest Waterways, a Seat of Dubious Honor. By Corey Kilgannon.
Write it down.
Asshole.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

"I won't worry my life away."

From the song The Remedy (I Won't Worry) by Jason Mraz.

Friday, October 14, 2016

"King Bhumibol Adulyadej of Thailand, who took the throne of the kingdom once known as Siam shortly after World War II and held it for more than 70 years, establishing himself as revered personification of Thai nationhood, died on Thursday in Bangkok. He was 88 and one of the longest-reigning monarchs in history."

From the October 13, 2016, New York Times article: Bhumibol Adulyadej, 88, People's King of Thailand, Dies After 7-Decade Reign. By Barbara Crossette.

Rest in peace to the King of Thailand. Living there really gave me a glimpse of how much he's loved by the country. I'm so sorry for your loss, Thaialnd---and my heart goes out to you.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016