i have a huge problem. i'm never satisfied with my life.

boyfriend-CHECK
less monotony in life-CHECK
a job at my first choice of nyc restaurants i would ever work at-CHECK

i set a goal, achieve it and think, "now what?"

the number of my profile views has been at 3,803 for the past few months and i have no idea how to fix it. has this happened to anyone else?

i have nothing to write about.

well, actually there's always stuff to blog about but i'm feeling lazy so i'll just post some pictures i took with my phone.

I got an iPhone. Yay for mobile blogging.

I just finished a double shift and am eating dinner and drinking alone in the east village.

I feel blah.

I don't think this lonely feeling will ever go away.

the new yeah yeah yeahs album = perfection. i love them.

does anyone else read PostScret? it's one of my favorites blogs out there and reading about all these other people who feel the same way i do out there makes me think that humans all hurt and feel sadness in the same way. it's universal.

anyway, i usually do not like using images that don't belong to me, but i read the following post card and it made me feel really sad. i don't know what i would if i was going through life without him next to me, being in a relationship makes feels so nice with someone you care about. sometimes i think that maybe thing's were destined to be this way, and this is why i'm going through my first serious relationship in the exact period in my life where so many other things are changing. for 26 years, it was always my professional life that blossomed and grew and my non-existent love life made me feel so lonely, which in turn affected every other factor in my life. it's funny how life works out. everything happens for a reason.