there's nothing casual about casual sex. there's something about sex with strangers that just doesn't do it for me. or maybe it's sex in general? i think it's overrated.

yesterday i went to The Ritz-Carlton to eat at BLT Market for a lunch meeting. can i just say that, sometimes i love my fucking job and am grateful to be able to eat at all these wonderful places.

suffice it to say, i was so excited to go to BLT Market and of course, the food was absolutely amazing. for my appetizer, i had mache salad with deviled quail eggs and black truffles. my entree was a shrimp and lobster risotto with cauliflower and black truffles. the risotto was so rich and delicious, it was the perfect dish to keep me warm on from the cold winter's day. for dessert i had a black coffee and a caramelized crepe soufflé with tangerine sauce and pomegranate seeds. wowza, soo good!

my cousin tim, who was my gracious host while i was in korea last year, came back to nyc for a few weeks, so all us cousins decided to meet for dinner and drinks. we ate at City Crab, which was pretty good. i've eaten there before and have to say that i was not that impressed with the food last night. everything was a bit blah. anyhoo, afterwards we all headed to koreatown for some drinks and debauchery at players and baden baden. i ended up sleeping at my sister's place in nj and just got back to my apt two hours ago.

crystal light is damn awesome.

it's refreshing, crisp, tasty, and most important of all, only 5 calories per serving. when i come home from the gym, i always reward myself with a tall glass to quench my thirst. thank you crystal light.

i miss juju.

damn, i still need to buy a bed. sleeping on the floor has lost its novelty.

i made a complete impulse purchase today at kim's video on st. marks. i bought the dvd of the reality bites. i've loved this movie from when i was a kid, and purchased the soundtrack in 7th grade (i still listen to it constantly). i was also very, very into lisa loeb back then, and remember waiting for her "stay" video to play on mtv all the time. a few years ago when i worked retail in soho, she once came into the store and was as cute as a button. i heart you lisa loeb.

i wish i knew what i wanted in life

i went to the gym today after not having worked out in like 3 weeks. wow- i feel completely exhausted right now, i can't even speak. but damn it felt good to sweat. also one thing i learned today, one of the best things to work out to is American Gladiators on nbc. holy fuck, Helga is intsense, i love it!

after the gym, my friend junho drove me to the local 24 hour supermarket in Astoria called Trade Fair, and i did some grocery shopping. grocery shopping is so much fun. i'm trying to buy only healthy stuff and what not, but i spoiled myself with two banquet tv dinners at $.99 each. i'll save those for a rainy day when i'm craving hot food. one is fried chicken and the other is chicken fried steak with gravy.

i know it's only monday, but so far i'm doing okay on my whole spending $20 on cash throughout the week plan. lunch time is the hardest because i absolutely fucking love halal food, and the smell of chicken over rice with extra white sauce just makes me salivate (i'm literally salivating as i write this). but i was good today and ate my healthy food that i bought from home. we'll see how the rest of the week goes.

this is going to be THE week.

this is going to be the week where i take out $20 from the atm on monday, and that money has to last me throughout the workweek. from monday through friday, the only money i will absolutely have to spend will be the $20. every morsel of food i eat will be healthy and from my weekly shopping done at the grocery store. instead of going out to dinner and meeting friends after work, i'll go work out and then come home or something.

we'll see how long this lasts!

i used to be scared of roaches but now they just fucking piss the fuck out of me, esp when they crawl near me as i'm trying to sleep. fucking kill them all.

damn, why do i feel like shit?

there's so much injustice in the world.

i finally moved today into my new place in astoria, good bye upper east side! it's my first night here and it's yet to feel like home. i feel like i'm squatting an empty room with all my stuff scattered about.

i have to admit though it does feel nice to unpack boxes that haven't seen the light of day since i packed them in november. i'm no longer living out of bags of clothing and can finally feel like i can unwind. my room is a decent size with a nice closet. here's a few pics for some visuals.





it'll prob take some time before i get all my furniture and other much needed stuff, blah.