scha⋅den⋅freu⋅de [shahd-n-froi-duh]: watching a woman sprint down the steps of the F train platform at 42nd street earlier this evening as she tried to catch the closing doors of the subway with her umbrella---and then seeing her proceed to fall straight on her ass as the doors closed right in front of her face.

did she actually think she was going to make the train? HAHA i'm sorry but that is some funny ass shit, i actually burst out laughing.

oh man, i totally had my whole reoccurring high-school nightmare and just woke up in an absolute panic. i dreamt that i had been skipping math class for weeks and that i wasn't going to graduate.

it's been 7 years since i graduated high school and i still get these nightmares every now and then. i'm also not the type of person who gets nightmares often so when i do, they usually really freak me out. i wonder if i'll still get them when i'm 50.

i have been house/dog-sitting since thursday for my friends in bed stuy. they have a large beautiful brownstone and the cutest little dog named madden. they also have furniture, a tv, cable, and internet --- i feel like i'm on a little mini vacation here.

i'm watching the "we are one" celebration for the 56th presidential inaugural weekend on hbo, and it's just making me feel so good and tingly inside.

i really feel like 2009 is going to be a year of great change in every aspect.

i really need to start working out again.

oh, life...

this entry deserves a title.

i got laid off this morning.

i then decided to treat myself by going to balthazar for eggs benedict and a bellini as i read over my sendoff package from human resources.

oh life --- you're always keeping me on my toes.

damn it, why the hell do i keep cutting myself every time i shave?

on thursday night, i finally tried the bo ssam at momofuku ssam bar.

this popular dish at the restaurant is prepared two days in advance and can only be eaten with a reservation made specifically for it. i went with my friend jenn and some coworkers of mine from the epicurean magazine i work at.

has anyone else out there tried it yet? i liked the dish and thought it was worth the money.

it was nice to spend time with coworkers outside the office and finally see what all the hype is about.

every night, i fucking dread the moment when i'm in bed with all the lights/computer/music turned off and i'm trying to fall asleep. i fucking HATE it because i just lie there, tossing and turning with nothing but a million thoughts in my head --- unable to relax or fall asleep.

it is probably my least favorite moment of every 24 hours in my life.

진달래 꽃 by 김소월

나 보기가 역겨워
가실 때에는
말 없이 고이 보내드리오리다

영변에 약산 진달래꽃
아름 따다 가실 길에 뿌리오리다

가시는 걸음 걸음 놓인 그 꽃을
사뿐히 즈려 밟고 가시옵소서

나 보기가 역겨워
가실 때에는
죽어도 아니 눈물 흘리오리다

i think i found a minor typo in the 2000 vintage international edition of haruki murakami's norwegian wood.

page 19, eleven lines down. does anyone else see it?

i'm in a slump.

i forgot how selfish you are.

it's 3 in the morning and i can't sleep, so i'm going through old photos i scanned into my computer years ago.

i found this gem below and it made me laugh so hard.

oh, the 90's...

on day's like this --- with no one to meet, nowhere to go and nothing to do, i wish i had a big comfy sofa and plasma tv to mindlessly veg out and do absolutely nothing for hours.

damn i'm bored.