humility is hot.

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i have a magazine addiction.

sometimes when i'm riding the subway home after work at 2:30 in the morning, i look around at the station or in the subway cart and ask myself, "what the hell am i doing with my damn life??"

even after all these years, i can't believe i still perfectly remember the theme song to "living single." isn't it funny what our brains remember? this show and "martin" still make me laugh as hard as i did when i first watched it as a kid.

does the whole "what-the-hell-am-i-doing-with-my-life/i'm-just-living-day-by-day-with-no plan/how-do-i-get-control-over-my-own-life" phase ever end?

or is this just how people spend their twenties?

anyway, the new apt is great. having 4 new roommates (including madden, my friends' lovable dog) in a new neighborhood and a nice apartment is sort of fun. living by central park is just amazing and i especially enjoy walking madden there. i'm also by the northern end of it on the west side and there are some really quiet and deserted areas of the park here. i really like nature and being outdoors so i'm happy to have that little getaway when i need.

there's also some secluded streams up here, and i love just sitting there and watching and listening to the water. living in alaska as a kid for five years and doing lots of cliche but fun outdoorsy stuff was one of the best parts of my life and i will always love doing those things. something about the sound of a river or stream always relaxes me. i mean, who cares if this stream is no wider than two feet and there's cigarette butts and empty beer cans, left from who knows when, scattered around?

i will take what i can get---story of my life.

my 2005 ibook is dead. i'm broke and will be computer-less for a while. that sucks.