Thursday, April 28, 2011

somehow, somewhere, i lost my focus and started channeling all my energy into things that don't really matter...

i need to start concentrating again.

Monday, April 25, 2011

dear neurosis and irrational fears,

leave me the fuck alone.

thanks, i appreciate it.


Friday, April 22, 2011

i just want to buy a stack of magazines and lose myself.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

ignorant people are ignorant people, no matter where in the world you are.

it's interesting that i've already had a couple of racist comments/actions directed towards me in thailand, all of which came from locals who live here. in america, most of my racist incidents stemmed from the fact that i'm asian, but things get more specific here in thailand. their version of "ching-chong-ching-chong!" is something along the lines of yelling "arigato!" or "kimchi!" while putting the backs of their hands against their foreheads and bowing as everyone around them laughs hysterically.

whenever i encounter people like this, i know that what they're saying and doing has nothing to do with me personally. they're only externally projecting their insecurities and looking like a god damn fool while doing so---it's so unfortunate.
a conversation between two wildflowers on a sunny day: part 3.

"carl, you look a little bloated today. and again with the sunglasses?"
"yeah, i'm still recovering. i had too much last night."
"too much what?"
"too much everything."
"carl, i think you may have a substance abuse problem."
"roger, just because i like to have a good time doesn't mean i have a problem. so what if i liked to get fucked up?"
"but shouldn't just life itself be enough for you to enjoy? why do you constantly need to be in an altered state?"
"on this planet, my dear friend, there will always be flowers who think like you and also think like myself. your version of an altered state is my chosen version of reality."
"that's just a bad excuse to get wasted."
"roger, we're wildflowers. since you're not living up to the stereotypes of our kind, flowers like me have to compensate for your lack of hackneyed convictions."

Sunday, April 17, 2011

i just want to live a modest and humble life.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

"and what we have is today."

yes, grace, so very fucking true.

Friday, April 15, 2011

sometimes, i think about how fragile life really is and it makes me so sad.
dinner with su noona.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

i cancelled the internet at my place because it was way too distracting, so i'm at a pc room right now. it's funny because it's just a small room with two rows of computers, however each one but mine is occupied by entranced little thai children playing games, watching music videos, twitter, facebook, gossip blogs, chat rooms, etc.

i guess internet addiction is starting at younger ages nowadays. mine can be pretty annoying sometimes as well, so i'm sure grateful i didn't have the internet at their age.

Monday, April 11, 2011

my blog friend make it easy tagged me in the Versatile Blogger Award, and so here are 7 random facts about myself:

- i think cooked carrots are delicious, but raw carrots taste like shit
- my middle name is hwan (hence my blog name)
- i cringe at the sound of other people's fingernails and toenails being clipped
- sometimes (actually, it's a lot more than sometimes), i just need to be alone
- i prefer spending $ on memories and experiences rather than materialistic goods
- when i'm feeling down, listening to R.E.M.'s shiny happy people or watching the song's music video is the best medicine (i like to think the little boy in the purple shirt and flippy-glasses was me in another lifetime)
- titles and labels are not how i choose to define people
dear bangkok,

i love you and all, but you really gotta pick up the pace sometimes.


Sunday, April 10, 2011

here are some photos that i never posted from my solo trip to laos last month.

just to note, that old japanese man is someone i kept running into as i walked through laos' capital, vientiane, so i thought it was only appropriate that i ask for a picture of him.

as for the last photo, well one of the drawbacks of traveling alone is having to ask strangers to take a photo for me---and then having them always come out not quite right...

Saturday, April 09, 2011

i haven't drank in a while so last night was fun overload.