Monday, April 07, 2014

It's been a few days since I finished dog/house-sitting for friends in Brooklyn. I'm back in the city now, but will be heading out to New Jersey after work tomorrow to stay for the rest of the week. My sister and brother-in-law are currently on a business trip overseas, and I'm going to be helping them out with some stuff in their office while they're gone. Besides that, I don't really feel like I have much going on with me right now. I haven't been updating this much lately. Sometimes the topics I want to write about seem to be about things that I've already mentioned, which isn't a big deal. But I'd like to think that I'm constantly growing, learning, and evolving---so bringing up thoughts and emotions I've already said would seem like I'm taking a step backwards. I've also recently come to think about what exactly I should and shouldn't be writing about here. While I don't really have my name written much on this blog, and keep it as unsearchable as possible on Google, I have to accept that people might stumble onto it somehow. And what makes me reflect on that is I don't want to wait tables for the rest of my life, and therefore don't want any future employers at big companies not hiring me because of anything that I've written about here. I mean I guess it might be a bit too late for that, because I know I already do have some colorful entries written here, so why stop with all of it now? I would say the fact that I'm currently 31 is a reason, and that perhaps I've moved on from a lot of the bullshit in my life that used to consume me. I recently told all of this to one of my best friends, and she disagreed. She said that I was creative by nature, and that it's not only good for me to continue writing here, but that I should continue to do it as honestly and openly as possible. That really made sense to me... so I here I am sitting alone in the dark after 3am at night---it doesn't get any more honest than this. Monday morning is literally hours away, and yet I just can't seem to fall asleep. I guess some of the old bullshit in my life just isn't ready to leave me yet.

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